Who are you trying to please? And how do your philosophical ideals add up to fighting for a government you don't believe in?
See, I get it. It was to gain respect in the best way available to her so that she could years down the line have real influence in an area where she could make things better.

I'm really sorry to hear about your gran (although I kinda knew already from Alex's journal I guess). I'm sure it's been really good for everyone that you were there, because you're a really strong person and must have been a real comfort and support to those who needed it.