Oh Morag, I am so glad that you still love me. I wish I could be on your couch right now, believe me. Just the knowledge that you're still there at the other end helps infinitely with the sense of isolation I've had lately. I've been trying to detach myself from the idea of loved ones in Scotland just in case I'm not allowed back in, which is unlikely but still such a huge fear that I've been trying to cushion the blow. Hence trying to not think too hard, fingers in ears going la la la!

Would you like to email me to my own address and we could have big chats that way? In case you still need to go rah! over a cup of tea. My own address is grim_eunuch@hotmail.com. For emergency talks, if you need me in a non public way.

I love you. And your lady wife too, but mainly you.

Ari.xxxxx