Ah my loves. I have nothing constructive to say that will help, so please just imagine me given you both a great big loving hug and sympathetic small smile here. You'll get through. I'm off to Derry for a few days, (which is distinctly LESS sunny grrrrr) so won't see your reply for a bit, but you fucking get out there and live it and love it and shake it by the balls. Love to you both.xxxxx